happiness

happiness is a choice. that's what most people might say. sige ulit-ulitin mo pa yan pero kung nandiyan pa rin yung reason kung bakit ka malungkot, hindi ka pa rin genuinely sasaya.

the prospect of genuine happiness is what motivates me to keep moving forward. masaya naman ako ngayon. you'd always see me smiling but there's still something missing. so far i've found bits of it in my family, my friends, from going to church, and from the internet (yey ym). pero kulang pa rin... hindi pa 100% fulfilled. kapag matutulog nako, hindi ko masabi sa sarili ko na nagawa ko ang lahat ng kaya kong gawin.

gusto kong magbago. as in total make over. gusto ko malaman ang purpose ko. kulang na ata ako sa volunteer work. kulang nako sa interaction with people who need me. nahihiya nakong ako yung laging may kailangan. gusto ko ako naman ang nagbibigay. nalulungkot nanaman ako... feeling ko ang incapable ko. ayoko na madagdagan ang mga bloopers sa buhay ko. ayoko na maging malungkot.

lasing sa antok nanaman tong blog na to... hmph... haha

(i love lea salonga)

happiness
-lea salonga-

Happiness is two kinds of ice cream

Finding your skate key, telling the time

Happiness is learning to whistle

Tying your shoe for the very first time

Happiness is playing the drum in your own school band

And happiness is walking hand in hand