decisions

there's a neurological explanation for everything. i stumbled upon this blog: boing boing. so cute ^_^

http://www.boingboing.net/2009/09/08/how-we-decide-mind-b.html

the most important thing you'd ever learn, you learn from Goldilocks. not too much, not too little, just right. making good decisions involves the balance between logic and emotion. think about it, but don't over think. think about consequences but don't explain yourself, it messes everything up.

i think that's my problem. i over think. i keep on finding reasons, trying to explain myself and finding logic in everything that i do. i did this because of that and because of that i'm doing this. oh great. and everything can be written in a manual. i don't think it's even necessary. i'm happy where i am. i'm grateful for what i have. i don't really have much. it doesn't seem that i'm moving forward, but i am. i'm not there yet but i would be, soon. hopefully in the next 3 years or else i might resort to another life altering decision, which might be too late. for now, i'm trying to live and enjoy every moment of it even if not everyone could relate or would agree.

i didn't take the chemistry board exam because i don't want to be a chemist. i would love to have the title. it would really be logical if i did but i didn't. i can't explain why, i just know in my heart that it's not the right place for me. ayaw sa akin ng chem. so bakit ko pipilitin ang sarili ko sa isang lugar kung saan hindi ako welcome. i'd rather be happy doing what i love than force myself into something that doesn't bring me joy.

may iba pakong life changing decisions na ginawa. adik lang. pinasabog ko lang naman ang buhay ko, at nagbabagong buhay nako ngayon. unti-unti.

don't think too much, but don't let your emotions get in the way ~_^

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naalala ko lang, perfect timing ang aking life altering decision dahil yun ang linggong nagsimula ang aking weekend classes. perfect timing. destiny? hehe

LSS pa rin ako ng closing song mula sa worship service kanina. today's message was so emotional. simula pa lang umiiyak na ako. i really felt the holy spirit fill the room, and it took over me. di nako makatigil umiyak. ang dami ko kasing nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon na nakakaoverwhelm. i really feel that i won't be sane if i did not have faith. ngayon ibang klaseng joy yung hinahanap ko. something that's sustained by the Lord. kulang pa ako nito. it's easy to say that i want to trust the Lord completely but to actually be that person is a different story. sabi nga ng ibang friends ko, skeptic ako. i use too much logic. i'm too practical. pero unti-unti, natututo naman ako. hindi ko na pinoproblema ang hindi kailangan problemahin. kaya nga nandiyan si Lord para pagtawanan ka pag may bloopers ka para hindi ka mukhang tangang tumatawa mag-isa :p haha saya! at pag tapos ng interview may katangahan kang ginawa, may makakausap ka agad. everyday gets easier kahit napepredict kong dadami pa lalo ang challenges. natutuwa lang ako ngayon. energized na ulit for the next week XD

i should learn to trust. stop procrastinating. stop fearing what's ahead. di ko naman talaga alam kung anong nag-aantay sa akin eh. trust lang talaga. at wag na magpuyat! waaa.... disiplinaaaaa~ anuba... haha. aja!

i was supposed to write how religion is the opium of the masses. it still is but, well, kung sa akin lang, masarap ma-high! wala namang masamang health effects ang pag worship kay Lord ^_^ it's a great feeling and i hope everyone would try it. wag lang masyadong magpapadala sa emotions haha. whee!