LayaFC app's party

roan and rhea

ihaw, swimming, pingpong, etc

enjoy naman kahit haggard hahaha!

check niyo rin yung videos ^_^ they're hilarious

bawal na gamot

we believe!

careless whisper

featuring myk and mark ^_^

LSS

it's still stuck in my head... hahaha! i can't help it... :p
medyo nabitin ako sa app's party last night/kaninang madaling araw. disadvantage of hosting a party, you get to be the person who knows where what is and gets to go back and forth to and from the house. kapagod pabalikbalik. pero ok na rin. enjoy pa rin naman. madaming beses lang kasi akong pinansin na medyo uptight daw ako hahaha! can't help it... sorry... pero seriously i had fun ^_^

careless whisper
george michael

I feel so unsure,
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor.
As the music dies...
Something in your eyes,
Calls to mind a silver screen,
And all those sad goodbyes.

Chorus
Im never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though its easy to pretend,
I know youre not a fool.

I should have no better than to cheat a friend,
And waste the chance that Id been given.
So Im never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.
Chorus

Time can never mend,
The careless whispers of a good friend.
To the heart and mind,
If your answers kind...
Theres no comfort in the truth,
Pain is all youll find.

Repeat chorus

What am I without your love?

Tonite the music seems so loud,
I wish that we could lose the crowd.
Maybe its better this way,
Wed hurt each other with the things we want to say.

We could have been so good together,
We could have made this last forever...
But now, whos gonna dance with me?
Please stay.
(alternatively):
And now its never gonna be
That way...

Repeat chorus

Now that youre gone...
Now that youre gone...
Now that youre gone...
Was what I did so wrong?
So wrong that you had to leave me alone?

superfreak

talent portion ni mark sa miss CHK

suicide

it's like sitting in your chair... doing something that is nothing...
procrastinating until your ass hurts.

suicide is killing one's self.

i'm killing myself by doing absolutely nothing but rant... which is not something... it's nothing... dying is me... killing myself is me...

just ignore me, ok... i hate the way i've navigated though life. can i pick another door and check if i can do better at a different career?

my latest therapy is a blog ban. no more blog entries and start living...

no more suicide... yes to coke lite... don't worry, there's no sugar

I'll Wait for the Next One (J'Attendrai Le Suivant)

it's french! hahaha

secrets

why does it have to be so hard to shut my mouth? why should it be so difficult for me to keep my opinions to myself? i'm not tactless. at least i think i'm not since i usually think about what to say... it's just that... i have to tell you everything i think about. that it's scary. i have to tell you everything. even the things you don't need to know. i need to release them. i'm not sure if it helps me...

having a blog may not be helpful after all... my life is an open book, with foot notes all over, with explanations between the lines. gawd... i provide a manual of the happenings in my life. it's not instructional, just plain data. useful data. i'm a stalker's dream come true. why was i born this way?!?!

>_<

nerdy pickup lines

got this from an email... di ko alam kung saan galing pero grabe nakakaharass hahaha!

Bio/Chem Pick-up Lines:

 

If I were an enzyme, I'd be DNA helicase so I could unzip your genes.

You're so hot, you denature my proteins.

Can I be the phasor to your electron and take you to an excited state?

You must be gibberelin, because I'm experiencing some stem elongation.

You make my anoxic sediments want to increase their redox potential.

Hey baby, will a little more alcohol catalyze this reaction?

I will fondle your vesicles while you caress my golgi body.

I want to work on your leucine zipper with my zinc fingers.

You're hotter than a bunsen burner set to full power.

If I were a neurotransmitter, I would be dopamine so I could activate your reward pathway.

Hey, wanna put your alpha helix in my beta barrel?

Hey baby, why don't you get your ligase working on my okazaki fragment and lengthen my strand.

Hey, are you an alpha carbon, because you look susceptible to backside attack!

Do you want to extract some protein from my column?

According to the second law of thermodynamics, you're supposed to share your hotness with me.

Everyone knows its not the size of the vector that matters, but the way the force is delivered.

How about me and you go back to my place and form a covalent bond?

We can make a mess as I've hired some lysosomes to clean up after.

Why don't we measure the coefficient of static friction between me and you?

Please have a smooth endoplasmic reticulum but know that I like it rough, if you know what I mean.

I also prefer my ribosomes bound...tight. Spin me round with your basal body and make sure it's turgid.

Do you like aerobic respiration as much as I do?

procrastination

ang lakas talaga ng temptation na magshift out lalu na kung sabaysabay ang deadlines at parang di na matapos tapos ang mga exam... pakiramdam ko mag-isa na lang ako... parang wala nang pag-asa... parang mas magpatutunguhan ako kung matagal na akong nagshift in sa clothing tech... ang prob ko lang dun is di ako marunong magdrawing... at least i can make clothes...

mas madali pang magtahi kesa magcompute ng enthalpy o i-pridict ang posibility na lilipad ang electron sa area na ito... minsan talaga parang ang sarap mag LOA... hmp... sayang di nako aabot sa deadline.... sayang

~

ang kulit ko... parang sunodsunod ata ang rants ko on my acad ah... wahahaha! taeng chem yan... tae ka garrett! pati na rin ikaw atkins! you could have done a better job if you would just provide capsules.... 50mg per day and i'd get the required daily intake of thermodynamics and biochemistry.

kailangan ko na talaga ng boyfriend na gagawa lahat ng mga paper ko... kailangan ko ng taga gawa ng thesis!!! >_<

last rant na to... next week puro happy thoughts na... ay di pala... week after next week wala nakong entries kasi nagdisappear nako sa kawalan dahil yun ang state of least potential energy... yun ang most stable state ko... invisible... walang problema... waaaa...

just ignore me please... hehe

molar

kumakatok ang aking wisdom tooth... gusto na niyang lumabas... tinutulak niya ang aking gilagid... nangiistorbo sa mga ngiping nananahimik lang sa tabi... di ko alam kung paano mapapadali ang buhay at kung paano mababawasan ang sakit... basta alam ko lang gusto na niya lumabas, ang gusto ko lang, katahimikan...

bakit pa ba kailangang magkaroon ng ganitong pangyayari... ngayon pa kung kailan nananahimik na ang lahat? akala ko pa naman masaya na siya sa ganung pusisyon, yun pala nagtitiis lang siya sa likod. ok lang naman sa aking pabayaan siyang lumabas. yun nga lang masakit. pero wala naman akong magagawa kundi payagang gawin niya ang kaniyang nais... pagkat siya ay bahagi na ng aking buhay. siya ang aking wisdom tooth. napakainam...

pito

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

1. rats
2. animals/living organisms being killed (including lab mice >_<), especially by me... well... death in general scares me a lot... and that includes violence and pain
3. the unknown (especially the future)
4. graduation/graduating/board exam
   
5. rejection
6. pain... or the prospect of pain... dying... hay...
   
7. commitment

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST

1. social life... ahihihi...
   
2. running. i love feeling the wind on my face... lalu na pag umaambon
3. jamming/singing/sound tripping
4. food trip!!! lalu na kung walang gastos and with special people
   
5. pananahi... di nako nakakapagtahi... at kung anu-ano pang mga artsy fartsy shit na ginagawa ko sa bahay... hahahaha!
   
6. san mateo... awww...
7. shopping... i'm an emotional shopper ^_^ kahit window shopping lang masaya nako. kahit pa grocery lang ganun din ang epekto sakin. masaya ako. hehe
   

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR ROOM

1. clothes... i'd die if i don't have clothes hahaha
   
2. bed... and the whole package ^_^ di pwedeng walang unan at kumot
   
3. books!!! hay nako ang mga katabi kong matulog... sila solomons, garrett, levine, atkins, leithold (noon) etc... hahahaha!
4. gitara & violin
5. radio
6. my sister hehehe
7. wala na yun lang importante eh...
   

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU

1. i don't drink water because it doesn't taste nice. napipilitan lang akong uminom
2. i don't eat potatoes. this includes french fries, hash browns, potato chips, etc
3. i had piano lessons but didn't even finish grade 1. i had violin lessons but only for one sem kaya bano pako. i wasn't allowed to get guitar lessons. pero pinakamaalam ako sa guitara compared sa piano at violin. haha! in short, sayang lang binayad ni nanay.
4. obvious ako. kapag gusto ko, makikita mo talaga yung passion. kapag ayaw ko, halata lang na napipilitan. kaya iba iba ang sasabihin ng mga tao kung tanungin mo sila kung tamad ako. hehehe
5. i am comfortable with eating alone as long as the place is not too crowded. sometimes it surprises me that people don't know that i'm an introvert
6. i can't stand too many people. di dahil tumatahimik ako eh may problema ako. di lang talaga ako kumportable pag maraming tao, unless na lang closest friends ko ang lahat ng un
   
7. laway conscious ako. don't ask why. just accept that fact that i am. kapag close na tayo, sige ikukuwento ko sayo kung bakit.
   

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1. have a family... and all the cliche people say... i don't really plan that far. planning my future and knowing that it might not push through scares me. so i'd rather not plan too far out. gusto ko lang maging masaya ako bago ako mamatay... kahit ano naman gawin ko magiging masaya ako kasi kaya ko naman gagawin yun dahil masaya ako dun. so i know that i will die happy. no plans needed.
   

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO

1. i can stay up till 4am without effort, unless i have anything acad related that i have to do... pampatulog kasi yang acads eh hahaha
   
2. i can produce music using my vocal chords, my hands and my fingers...
3. i can make my own pants, given 2 yards of cloth, in more or less 2 hours
4. i can wear the most mismatched clothes and still look confident
   
5. i can cook gulaman
6. i can sleep in class
   
7. i can swim

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T DO

1. i can't dance
2. i can't stand large crowds. i'm not really comfortable
   
3. i can't put my heart into something i don't want. call me stubborn pero ganun talaga ako. at ayokong pinipilit akong gawin ang isang bagay na ayoko
   
4. i can't sleep earlier than 11pm... kahit sobrang pagod, laging past 11 nako nakakatulog
5. i usually can't tell if a person is lying to me
6. i can't stand lairs and cheaters
   
7. i can't survive a day without having any form of social interaction
   

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX

1. abs... patay-gutom look ^_^ pero may onting muscles
   
2. long hair pero di mukhang babae
   
3. sense of humor/matalino (may relasyon yan) or at least mas matalino siya sa akin
   
4. gentleman... chivalrous ahihihi... basta as long as he makes me feel like a lady kahit pa sabihin ko sa kaniya na kaya ko naman mag-isa. haha
   
5. ung pinapansin ako... un lang. ksp kasi ako. eh pinapansin ko lang ung mga pumapansin sakin
6. confident pero hindi mahangin
7. good conversationalists
   

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST

1. shet/pakshet
2. tae
3. yah sure...
4. mamamatay nako
5. ang tamad ko/nakakatamad
6. ayoko na!
7. ang cute!
   

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES

1. mark abaya
2. aia de leon
3. un lang... hahaha
   

SEVEN PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SEE TAKE THIS TEST

1. verna
2. mnel
3. pauee
4. sarj
   
5. alex
6. tannix
7. basta mga sali ako people... para masaya... hahaha! sayang talaga di ako nakasama nung huling meet-up
   

spidermagnanakaw 2

spidermagnanakaw strikes again. sa kabilang side naman siya sumubok pumasok... tae talaga. just when you feel like you're safe... when walls are all high and barbed wires are laid out in all possible entry points, he finds a way to sneak into our house... ewan ko ba kung anong meron sa amin. wala naman siyang kinukuha. di rin kasi siya makalabas sa front door since it's double locked so kailangan pa niyang magakrobatiks para lumabas. wala tuloy siyang nakukuha. tanga.

maybe it's the thrill of getting in... maybe he's keeping score of which houses he's entered... ewan... basta naiinis na ako. di ko talaga gets. bakit kami pa? --_--'

hawt

why do i love surfing? because of hipon... lots and lotsa hipon!!! hipon here, hipon there, drown yourself in hipon!! wahahaha! it is the first thing that attracts me to the sport (kung sport nga yun) kasi saan ka pa makakakita ng mas maraming hipon kundi sa beach ^_^

imagine, naturally tanned abs... broad shoulders... mmm... sarap lang manood... wahahaha!

pero siyempre nakakasawa rin. kalahating araw pa lang ata sawa nako. parang hindi na kasi special... nakakalungkot na nauubos rin ang magic... hahahaha! it just means that it's the hot bodies that draws you in, and the sport that keeps you coming back.

same thing goes with football. ang saya na kusang nagtatanggal ng t-shirt ang mga soccer players pero siyempre nagustuhan ko ang sport dahil masaya maglaro :D

who cares about abs... so what if guys just want to take off their tops. wala naman silang abs. di naman sila masarap titigan. masaya maglaro. gusto kong maglaro. gusto kong mapagod. gusto kong tumakbo ng mabilis nang parang tanga lang dahil wala naman akong hinahabol at wala namang humahabol sa akin.

i love running. i want to sprint. i want to find my peak. i want to run as fast as i can until it hurts... so fast that i can't keep up. ayoko na munang harapin ang mga problema ng buhay... gusto ko lang tumakbo...

[edit] btw, hipon means: yummy is the body, but nevermind the head... hahaha! [/edit]

relationship

there are two sides in a relationship. in order for it to work both sides have to agree to hold on to each other. neither should let go, neither should push the other away... kung mukhang wala namang gana ang humahawak sayo, diba mawawalan ka na rin ng gana? kung tinutulak ka niyang palayo, bakit ka pa magpupumilit kumapit? masasayang lang ang pagod. ang dami naman diyang iba, diba?

ano nga pala ang kahulugan ng true love? diba wala naman talagang true love...kathang isip lamang ito na binuo ng hallmark (greeting cards) upang makabenta ng maraming maraming cards. kunwari lang kailangan ng true love sa isang malusog na relasyon pero ang totoo, ang pinakaimportanteng sangkap sa malusog na relasyon ay ***... hahaha! joke lang... pinakaimportante ay compromise at communication. communicate!!! keep an open mind and learn to listen to yourself and to your partner.

there's also no harm in letting go when there's no where to go but down. understand that things come and go, but it doesn't mean it's the end of the world. nothing is constant but change. don't try to restrain your partner. the tighter your grip, the more she wants to escape.

i am a free spirit. no one can make me stay in one place longer than my ass could take. ayoko rin naghihintay. i have fear of commitment and you should know that by now. don't take it personally if eventually i leave you without warning. this is me. live with it.

misery

if you still don't know, i spent the most miserable days of my college life in summer 2006. i don't even want to reread my journal. i would hate to remember how small i felt and how miserable they made me feel without even trying. to the point that i wanted to hit the walls so hard that it would fall on them and shatter their skulls into bits and pieces. of course i couldn't do that. i felt too small to even attempt such feat. traumatizing.

i don't think i ever recovered. my self esteem has always been low but after those days, i felt like dust.

the face i wear now is just a mask. the body that you see is an empty jacket, sprayed with starch so that it would stand on its own. i have friends to hold on to whenever i feel like collapsing. i have my family to go home to where i could recharge my spirits. and i have my blog and online friends to cause enough distraction, to keep the tears from falling.

i joined the trip because i wanted to learn. i wanted to grow. i wanted to be like you because i've always admired you. but i made the wrong move.

if there's something in my life that i regret, it's joining the trip. it caused me so much pain that i had to take a break for one whole sem. i got so tired. i had to get out.

at ngayon, nagbalik nako, ganun pa rin. ewan.

if you're thinking that i should be talking to the people involved instead of going all out emo in my blog, i'd tell you, sino ba ako? isa lang akong pipitsuging bata na taga bilang at taga tupi ng damit. walang kapangyarihan. walang boses. talaga? papakinggang nila ako?

anyway, that's ages ago. buried deep in the past. ayoko nang kausapin at ayoko nang pag-usapan kasi ayokong gumagawa ng gulo. ok na naman. nagkaroon na ng compromise. my scars are still visible pero di ko na nararamdaman.

~

ayoko nang pag-usapan natin kasi wala na namang mababago. tapos na. gusto ko lang malaman mo, minsan sa buhay mo sinaktan mo ako nang di nalalaman... past is past

spidermagnanakaw

may suki kaming magnanakaw na umaakyat sa bubong namin at nagpapakaspiderman sa walls. di nga namin malalaman na may nakapasok na magnanakaw kung di pa nakita ng katulong namin na may footprint sa dingding ng 2nd floor sa gitnang apartment. at tumalon talon siya from the kitchen bubong, to unit A, to unit B, to unit C pero di siya nakapasok. kaya tumalon siya to unit I, H, G, F... wala namang nakuha. binaba lang niya yung mga gusto sana niyang nakawin sa unit F (yata) tulad ng mga gamit, gamit, bote ng asin at payong mula sa unit I. wala naman siyang nakuha. takaw mata lang. windang lang kami.

a day after, nag-attempt nanaman siya. nakahanda na yung mga lalaki ng unit I na bugbugin yung spidermagnanakaw pero nakita ng katulong. tumili si katulong. tumakbo at nakatakas tuloy si magnanakaw.

weeks before that, mga 9pm, umakyat na rin siya sa bubong pero walang nakuha. ang aga, 9pm. grrr...

the first time it happened, a few months back, pumasok siya sa kuwarto namin, di man lang pinansin ang aking bag na vintage at mukhang basura. kinuha niya ang bag ng aking kapatid containing her mp3 player, kinuha rin niya ang remote control ng tv ni lola (possibly thinking na celfone un... haha! stupid)

so, di pa ako nananakawan ni spidermagnanakaw. yey for me. pero siyempre ayoko namang may mutant na pumapasok sa aming property diba. so a few weeks ago, after the the day when we found out he can walk on walls, naglagay na si tatay ng mga barbed wire sa may bubong ng kitchen kasi feeling namin dun siya dumadaan. may ilaw na rin para matakot siya. pero di gumana. kagabi nakita nanaman siya. napansin rin ng katulong namin na may nagdistrub ng fence namin sa other side ng lot. hay... spidermagnanakaw never gives up... tsk...

that's life... there are just nice people, and people who are not nice... tsk...

which reminds me... sabi ng kaibigan ko:
"mukhang kailangan mo nang magpigil sa kakapuyat mo......
sa susunod di lang lagnat aabutin mo......alagaan mo naman sarili mo.....please
the world will have one nice person less!!"

aww... i hope he doesn't mind that i quoted him ^_^ and i'm not even acknoweldging him... wahahaha! hindi na niya malalaman

(pero just in case nababasa mo to. comment ka na lang at iaacknowledge kita hehe)

SoYouWanna learn the basics of soccer?

http://www.soyouwanna.com/site/syws/soccer/soccerfull.html
useful... and sometimes funny... hehehe

"Basically, people like kicking things around. Okay, so not many Americans seem to — we prefer throwing things (e.g., baseball, basketball) and full-body assault (e.g., football, hockey) — but you have to admit that there's an appeal to just knocking the crap out of something with your foot."

and

"Unimpaired by overactive imaginations, soccer's founders have named these positions left-half, center-half (or center-midfield), and right-half"

interesting read ^_^

lagnat

note to self: wag magpupuyat araw-araw. kawawa naman ang iyong katawan... hirap na hirap na. wag na kasi mag-aral, masestress ka lang. matulog ka na lang buong araw. wala ka rin namang natututunan kung pumasok ka eh...

Boohbah Zone

http://www.boohbah.com/zone.html
for people with short attention spans and a passion for sound and colors ^_^ hahaha!

the cutest thing i've seen on the web wahahahaha!

cortisol

namamaga yung shin ko... ay, di pa ata to shin kasi nasa ibaba. hmm... hindi, shin na rin to kasi hindi siya ankle. basta namamaga. hahaha! ilang beses ba naman matamaan ng bolang lumilipad. whee!!!

for now, hindi ko pa rin alam kung serioso nako. pero may nakikita akong potential. daming PG looking guys. may potential talaga... hahahaha! jowk lang... narealize ko lang kasi na pumapayat ako. dahil kasi sa stress ito. tumataas ang levels ng cortisol sa aking dugo. kailangang kontrahin ito. kailangan ko ng epinephrine sa aking katawan upang sumaya. eh ang balita ko, tumataas ang epinephrine levels when engaging in sports activities. and that's what i'm doing... diba? not just patay-gutom-looking-guy hunting. hehehe

sana masolve ko na ang aking stress problems by doing this. i really need a time out from acads and all the other stress causing eklat in my life. wahahaha!

~

[edit] after 1 day, masakit butt cheeks ko... sakit rin ng abs koooooo.... the price you have to pay to see hott guys.....hahahaha [/edit]

gray

napulot ko sa friendster bulletin board... di ko alam kung sino nagsulat... medyo ano e... hmm... basta... --_--' nakarelate ako sa nakasulat...

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Pseudo-relationships.

Pseudo-boyfriends.

Pseudo-girlfriends.

Flings.

Almost like a relationship, but not quite.

It is a phase where the persons involved
are more than friends, but not quite lovers.

Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng
wala.

One or both of you may have admitted
your feelings, possible ding hindi.

You just let your gestures do the
talking for you.

Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari.

Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.

Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi
niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.

This kind of "relationship" can happen
at different stages for different reasons.

It can happen after a break-up.

You still love each other, and you want
to be with each other but you broke up
for a reason.

And for reasons that you alone know,
ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.

It can also happen before a
relationship, iyong pareho kayong
nakikiramdam.

Possible din na ayaw niyo munang
mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna.

Testing lang. (tama ba un?!)

Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo
kasi isa sa inyo may ka-relasyon na.

Kaya habang hindi pa siya
nakikipag-break doon sa boy/girl (sabi
niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di
naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong
relasyon para nga naman hindi siya
nangangaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."

This pseudo-relationship stage, for a
time, can be fun.

Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng
"KALARO."

Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may
patutunguhan kayo kase wala talagang
kasiguraduhan.

So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa
ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman
sigurado kung may patutunguhan?

Iba't ibang dahilan.

Puwedeng for fun lang.

Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" or
puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom."

Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real
thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.

For those who are not in a serious
relationship, they would think that
pseudo-relationship is better than no
relationship at all.

It would be fun, if all you're after is
that "kilig" feeling.

But then I learned that although it was
only a pseudo-relationship, the emotions
were real.

And usually, in this kind of set up,
merong malulugi..

"ung nainlove sa taong taken na.."

Una, you can't ask him/her to commit.

Since it's not really a relationship,
you can't demand commitment from your
partner.

Ano ba kayo?

You will always be uncertain about your
role in his/her life.

You can't expect him/her to be always
there with you.

And if you feel jealous of the other
boys/girls, you just have to keep it to
yourself.

Ano ka ba niya para magselos?

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in
love with him/her?
You can't be sure if he/she feels the
same w ay.

Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka
rin niya.

Even if you are dying to tell him/her
you love him/her, you can't.

Because you're not sure if he/she will
like it.

Baka mapahiya ka lang.

This stage will always make you wonder
where you are in the relationship.

Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached
too much?

What if you have invested all your
emotions and this man/woman hasn't?

What if you remain faithful to him/her,
not entertaining other guys/gals, only
to find out that he/she is seeing other
girls/boys?

Isa pang downside ng
pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting.

When a disagreement sets in, or when one
of you gets cold, then that would be the
end of it.

Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi
mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang
pseudo-relationship.

Wala kang pinanghahawakan.

Kasi sa pseudo- relationship,

there is no "us."

Meron lang "you and me."