screaming infidelities

nababaliw na yata ako... isang linggo ko na kasi di nakikita yung crush ko. yan tuloy nagwiwithdrawal ako. nyahahahaha! napasound trip tuloy ako... sa lahat naman ng kanta, ito pa maririnig ko. di naman ako paranoid.

*yuck... yung ipis dinidilaan yung antena niya... left... right... left... right... ewwwwnesssss... ayaw pa rin tigilan*

sigurado naman kasi akong di siya makakahanap ng ibang magtitiyaga sa kaniya. wala rin naman akong makikitang taong magtitiyaga sa akin. pero sabi nga sa txt, absence makes the heart whatever. shet nakalimutan ko pa... tinatamad nako magsearch. alam ko lang kapag di ko siya nakikita, hindi ko mapipigilang mapatingin sa iba.

*ayan nagsawa na yung ipis sa kaniyang antena. nagmemeditate na lang siya sa may pintuan*

baka sa simula hanggang tingin lang, pero kapag magsawa, baka maging kaliwete na ako...

*ay dinidilaan nanaman nung ipis yung antena niya. ay grabe di ba nauubos yung lasa nun?*

hindi naman yata mangyayari yun. sa klase ng personality na meron ako, na super loyal. tipong ilang taon na, siya pa rin, maiisipan ko pa bang mangaliwa? hindi ko masabing imposible kasi sabi ni peter pan, "never say never" at dahil may peter pan syndrome ako, susundin ko sinabi niya. misquote yan kasi tinanggal ko yung "neverland" sa end ng statement. so ibang quote naman, "wag magsalita ng tapos" XD amen.

ayokong mangaliwa. napagkamalan nakong kaliwete... at sobrang laking krimen na nito. ang daming kaguluhang naidulot. warla kung warla. eh false accusation lang ito. paano pa kaya kung totoo na noh? hay...

*para sa mga di makarelate, past is past. wag niyo na lang alamin please. tanggapin niyo na lang na accusation lang ito at walang katotohanan. slight katotohanan lang daw. ayoko nang alalahanin.*
*ay nawawala na yung ipis...*

napansin ko lang, inaassume kong ako ang mangangaliwa... eh bakit hindi yung lalaki ang mangangaliwa? possible yun diba? may sinabi si peter pan, "anything is possible if you believe." wala nanaman sa context. hahaha! siguro dahil mas madali mangaliwa kesa maging taong kinakaliwa. plus, hindi ako pipili ng lalaking pakiramdam ko ay mangangaliwa sa akin. (tama ba yung use ng word? mahina kasi ako sa language...)

kung psychiatrist ako, sasabihin ko sa sarili ko, "and how does that make you feel?" sasabihin ko sa psychiatrist kong sarili, "ewan ko sayo!"

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screaming infidelities
-dashboard confessional-

I'm missing your bed, I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
You're not alone and you're not discreet.
You make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again,
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it:
"I'll love you always and forever"

As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
And sit alone and wonder, how you're making out.
And as for me I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone, making out.

I'm missing your laugh,
How did it break?
And when did your eyes
Begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending

I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
I am alone in my defeat
I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed, I never sleep.
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak.
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
And sit alone and wonder...
How you're making out.
And as for me I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone...
Making out

Your hair it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities and taking its wear.

*the first time i heard this song (highschool ata) di ko pa alam meaning ng infidelity. naisip ko rin, sa lahat ng ebidensyang makakalap niya, bakit buhok? anong klaseng buhok?*

quote nanaman napanood ko ata sa joan of arcadia... men cheat because they don't feel needed. women cheat because they don't feel loved... or something to that effect.

sauna

"aalisin ko ang pagiging laway conscious ni laya! (applause... applause...)
at higit pa roon, bibigyan natin siya ng trabaho! (applause... applause...)"

sabi yan ni pio kanina using the GMA accent... medyo mahaba yung speech niya pero yan lang natandaan ko... parang yung sona ni gma kanina, yung P0.50 na txt lang ang naaalala ko... :p

magbabasa na lang ako ng diyaryo bukas para mabasa yung mga sinabi niya. naiirita ako sa boses niya hahaha! para kunwari walang bias hahaha

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classification: humor
haha! joke lang, health ang classification niyan... hay sumakit ang ulo ko.. XD

blintz

sinisinok ako. mga 10mins nako sinisinok. takot ako lumabas sa kitchen kasi madilim. titiisin ko na lang yung sinok ko hangga't di pako inaantok

napansin ko lang na lagi na lang akong nanonood ng tv sa gabi. ung mga usual shows lang na pinapanood ko kapag gabi like House or CSI depende sa gabi. movie minsan kung matiyempuhan na maganda. kapag late na, life with derek sa nickelodeon, sugar then chef at large sa asian food channel. evening pampatulog routine ko lang. hehe...

*ayan wala nakong sinok*

ayoko lang matulog... pwedeng umakyat nako sa kuwarto at humiga at pumikit hanggang makatulog ako but i found this method more frustrating. umaabot ako ng 4am na nakapikit lang. antayin ko na lang na antukin ako para pag-higa ko, tulog nako agad...

bukas magluluto ako ng blintz crepes. they're more tender than the usual crepe (daw) kasi mas madaming butter, according to Sugar.

Blintz Crepes

• 1 1/4 cups flour
• 2 tbsp sugar
• 4 egg
• 3/4 cup water
• 1 1/4 cups milk
• 1 cup unsalted butter, melted

http://www.foodtv.ca/recipes/recipedetails.aspx?dishid=2575

someday i'd make sugar scupltures. they're making ice and sugar sculptures on Chef at Large. someday makakabili rin ako ng silicone mat thingie nila. gusto ko rin ng baby blow torch... yeba

yes, i'm a fan of foodtv... hehehe... sana tumaba na ako ^_^

earrings yey!

for sale! P40 each pair... small ones are sold for P30... tapat na yan, wala nang tawad. ang mura mura na nga eh... tsk... hahaha!

PM me if you're interested. indicate which particular earring you like para madadala ko at marereserve ko na para sa iyo.

the pictures really don't do them justice. gabi na kasi at mahina ang ilaw. nag photoshop lang ako diyan so medyo hindi accurate ang colors. haha! dadalin ko na lang siya sa up para makita ninyo...

bili na kayo para magkaroon nako ng pera pambili ng DSLR... nyahaha! tsaka para makagawa na ako ng bago ^_^

P8.50?!?!

madami daw kasing hindi nakakaintindi kaya hindi sinisingil ni manang asawa ni manong driver ang mga tao ng 8.50. pang-apat na araw na raw ngayon ng pagtaas ng pamasahe. pati daw sila namamasahe at nagbabayad ng 8.50. siguro apat na beses niya sinabi yun sa akin. ginatungan pa ni manong driver. nasa diyaryo daw pati nasa news sa tv. nagkukulong na siguro sa kuweba ang taong hindi pa alam. buwiset. oo na, ako nang nakatira sa kuweba. ako na ang hindi alam na nagtaas ang singil >_<

may mga tao daw na hindi nakakaintindi. wala silang kuwenta, ayaw nila i-explain ng mabuti. inuunahan nila eh. tinatarayan agad yung taong nagtatanong kung bakit kulang ng 50 centavos ang sukli nila. ayaw nila iexplain na nagtaas na ang pamasahe. ieexpect lang nila na maiintindihan agad ng mga tao na basta ganun ang sinukli, ganun ang pamasahe. inaassume lang nila na inaaway sila ng kanilang mga pasahero. nagtatanong lang naman ng explanation. hmph sila... walang social skills.

~

baka allergic ako sa maanghang... baka sa kamatis... baka sa stress. kasi wala naman akong kinakain kanina, ang lamig lamig pa nga ng aircon eh tapos namaga nanaman ang kamay ko. kumain kami ng pizza tapos nangati na ang ilalim ng jaw ko. pati legs ko nangangati na rin. pati kilikili makati. gawd... what's happening to me?!?!

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today was not productive.... i have pending results... i wasn't able to attend an important meeting... i wasn't able to meet up with one of the most important persons in my life... i don't feel any pressure right now... ahahahaha... i'm sorry... ahahahaha...

sana bukas mas masaya na ang buhay...

leche kasing ulan yan. kalakas naman... subra... di tuloy ako nakalabas ng bahay ng umaga. after lunch na tuloy ako umalis. yan tuloy ginabi. hmph... kainerzzz

fuse

Rating:	★★★★
Category:	Other

balang araw makakagawa rin ako ng fuse earrings... ang hirap kasi na nasa san mateo yung materials ko in making earrings pero nasa project 6 naman ang electronic materials ko... nakakatamad rin kasi asa pang mangyayari na magmumukhang ethnic ang techie stuff so goodluck na lang sa akin kung saan ko siya magagamit at kung sinong mabebentahan ko nun... diba? haha

source: http://home.comcast.net/~populartransit/poptrans/newframeset.htm
jewelry designed by Diana Eng and Emily Albinski
(diana eng was a contestant in project runway... ^_^)

kolehio

i promised to post this list after i pass my thesis. nakalimutan ko. ngayon ko lang naalaa... nyahahaha! college life is funnnnnnnn

[ ] Worried about getting bullied by fratmen or getting killed in a riot.
[ ] Got bullied by fratmen or was killed in a riot. *buhay pa naman ako*
[x] Witnessed a riot. *once sa los banos. as in 5 guys were hitting a guy with steel pipes. madugo... literal... nakakatrauma*
[x] Watched the Oblation Run. *twice*
[x] Made friends with a teacher.
[ ] Was tricked as a freshman into attending a rally / prayer meeting.
[x] Wore red or black on one of those wear red or wear black days.
[ ] Wore red on Valentine’s Day.
[ ]Wore black on Valentine's Day.
[x] Celebrated a birthday at Mang Jimmy's.
[x] Learned UP Naming Mahal. *pati sa kulintang*
[x] Was an RA (registration assistant) or SA. *sa cwts sa msi haha*
[ ] Lied or begged to an RA for a slot in class. *di ko kailangan. i always get everything sa crs nyahaha*
[ ] Participated in a there's-only-one-more-slot-are you-feeling-lucky? *di kailangan*
[x] Jogged around the campus. *mula freedom part papuntang forestry? i miss those days... sa diliman naman yung sprint sa heartbreak. sarap*
[x] Visited the Vargas Museum.
[x] Knew at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name. *friendly naman sila e*
[x] Attended university level graduation.
[x] Got an activist for a teacher.
[ ] Watched a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game.
[x] Watched a UP vs. any school basketball game. *sinamahan ko lang si pio*
[x] Studied in CASAA.
[ ] Studied in McDonald's or Jollibee Philcoa for one full night and bought just one  regular-sized drink.
[ ] Studied along Katipunan.
[ ] Studied along Katipunan and affected the mannerisms of a stereotypical Atenean.
[x] Watch a play that's not required for Comm III
[x] Went stargazing.
[x] Ate in Chocolate Kiss, Tea Room (in CHE) or Chateau Verde. *bakit wala ang Oz cafe sa listahan?*
[ ] Struck up a conversation with a taong grasa.
[ ] Wrote to/for the Collegian.
[ ] Seriously pondered about the identity/ies of the people described in Eksenang Peyups. *minsan obvious eh*
[x] Went to the chapel. *napilitan? nyaha*
[x] Got a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers while walking in Sunken Garden. *yung buto ng acacia dumidikit sa tsinelas ko. yuck*
[ ] Cut class with your block to watch a movie.
[ ] Had a Voltes V for a teacher.
[ ] Took a class under Joseph Palis.
[ ] Lied to the transcript lady to get a transcript earlier than the standard 3 months. *di ko pa nakukuha TOR ko! nakalimutan ko nanaman haha*
[x] Went to a Freshman-only concert.
[ ] Subsisted on just streetfood (fishballs, half footlongs, kwekwek, squidballs/rolls, mais, dirty ice cream) for a day.
[x] Learned how to smoke. *may instructions kasi online. but i don't smoke*
[x] Went on an out-of-town trip with blockmates or orgmates.
[x] Fell in love. *yak cheezzzzzzzzzy... honest lang ^_^*
[x] Actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib.
[ ] Played cards during your free time.
[x] Dressed in business attire. *kapag kailangan or kapag malakas ang trip haha*
[ ] Sumabit sa jeep.
[ ] Got sung to or sung to someone in class during Valentine's day.
[x] Watched the Lantern Parade. *lots of times nung bata pako. nagparticipate ako thrice na*
[x] Helped out a total stranger.
[ ] Helped out a total stranger because he/she was hot. *hot guys are too proud to ask for help*
[ ] Learned to stay awake for more than 24 or 48 hours straight. *kailangan ko ng at least 2 hours of sleep*
[ ] Got bullied by fratmen and feeling cool wannabe people who were actually losers.
[x]Took Wednesday and/or Sat classes WILLINGLY.
[x] Volunteered for the pahinungod. *hahaha!*
[ ] Ate "tasteless white sauce" pasta from cock-a-noodle-doo.
[x] Got a boyfriend/girlfriend. *honest lang nyahaha*
[x] Took time to read the vandalism in the CR. *ang saya kasi nila haha*
[ ] Watched a sexy art film for any GE class. *aww... madaya di ko naexperience to*
[ ] Got held up or pickpocketed.
[ ] Felt depressed because you were not as good academically as you were in high school. *as if*
[x] Did a last minute paper.
[ ] Had spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures.
[x] Got exempted from final exams.
[ ] Got exempted from a final exam but still took it.
[ ] Attended a varsity pep rally.
[x] Watched LIVE AIDS, Androgyny, Maskipaps or any well-known variety show.
[ ] Promised to quit smoking
[ ] Got into at least one (org- or council-sponsored) adventure race.
[x] Knew where the best restrooms are on campus.
[x] Joined an org. *kontra-gapi, laya football club, laging pahinungod nung buhay pa yung org*
[x] Allowed yourself to make mistakes. *nyahahaha*
[ ] Went to the gym in spite of having no PE class just to ogle varsity players/cute boys.
[x] Took summer classes.
[x] Admired the Oblation.
[x] Made a video for a project.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] Had a teacher who had a crush on/tried to court you.
[ ] Attended your ROTC Bivouac.
[ ] Faked sickness to get an absence excused.
[ ] Got your car scratched by one of those "Kuya bantayan ko kotse niyo" kids.
[ ] Took a PE class where you had to pay for tuition (i.e. sportsclimbing, ten pin bowling, scuba diving, etc).
[x] Went to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes. *always comfort over fashion*
[ ] Learned how to use the Bayantel pay phones.
[x] Participated in school activities.
[ ] Caught the UP Pep Tryouts.
[x] Dated someone from UP.
[x] Rode an IKOT and TOKI.
[x] Found a tambayan.
[ ] Went drinking at Sarah's. *nakagraduate akong di nakakaapak sa sarah's waw... tomato kick lang ako sumasama*
[ ] Learned how to beg for a higher grade.
[ ] Used your 6 allowable absences wisely.
[x] Lived in a dorm. *sa new dorm sa uplb*
[ ] Volunteered to be beadle or go-to guy for your group / class.
[ ] Had the worst schedule. *i always love my sched*
[ ] Realized that there really is just one coconut tree on the sunken garden. *wala na... putol na siya... ahuhuhu*
[x] Not used up all 6 allowable absences.
[x] Ate in ISSI, Treehouse, Mama Thai's and other more obscure cafeterias.
[x] Ate food Aristocart-style.
[x] Is active in your org.
[x] Attended an ACLE.
[ ] Got as many app forms as you can during the job fair.
[x] Learned how to cram.
[x] Sold tickets for (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere.
[ ] Saved money to Xerox all of your seatmate's notes.
[x] Had accidentally seen a make-out session. *grabe, 30mins di gumagalaw. gusto ko na lapitan to see if they're still breathing... the session lasted for 1hour 45mins*
[x] Slept in class.
[ ] Finished a homework/assignment/paper in the Shopping center or Philcoa. *batang DLRC ako*
[x] Had mountains of "unused" sample exams and/or old testaments.
[x] Resolved to be "better this semester". *wish ko lang*
[x] Slept during a test. *puyat sa kakaaral kunwari haha*
[x] Had groupmates from hell.
[x] Learned how to work with groupmates from hell. *kailangan*
[ ] Perfected the art of parking on campus.
[ ] Had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus.
[ ] Developed a love for sisig.
[x] Practiced those UP cheers in the first meeting for PE class.
[x] Looked at microfilms in the library or poked through archives.
[x] Reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function.
[x] Attended the UP Fair.
[x] Went to a library other than your own college's to research. *and to sleep or magpa-aircon with friends. ganda ng lib sa econ!*
[x] Lost a perfectly functioning umbrella. *bagong bili pa.. hay*
[x] Used consultation hours properly.
[ ] Went to the Guidance Office for real, heart-to-heart guidance.
[x] Went to the infirmary.
[ ] Attended class with a hangover.
[x] Drink beer or alcohol while inside UP grounds.
[x] Walked all the way to Philcoa or Katipunan from UP. *masaya eh. hehe*
[ ] Buy frogs from NSRI or a Bio department.
[x] Maxed out on the 6 allowed unexcused absences but DID NOT drop. *singko tuloy waaaa*
[ ] Got invited or pursued by a sorority or fraternity.
[x] Wore slippers to school. *diba normal to? sa lab lang ako nakasapatos eh*
[ ] Had a professor who smoked in class.
[ ] Got diagnosed by the Infirmary as pregnant or infected with STD *as if nyahahaha*

i miss college life... hehe...

insomnya

-sugarfree-

alas singko na pala ng umaga
kanina pa nakatunganga
walang malambot na kama
sa killer kong insomnya, baby

nananabik na muling dalawin ng antok
nananabik na muling tawagin ng hilik

'di ko alam kung ba't ako nagkaganito
'di ko alam kung ba't ako nagkaganito

ilang oras na ring nakahiga
pagulung-gulong sa aking kama
parang modelo kung makapwesto
mahirap ang maging ganito

gising na ang aking nanay
gising na ang aking tatay
may ilaw na sa bahay
ngunit bakit malungkot ang aking buhay