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Monday, April 30, 2007

malabo

minsan akala mo alam mo na ang lahat ng kailangan mong malaman
minsan akala mo sigurado ka na
minsan sigurado ka nang ikaw ang tama
minsan ikaw pa rin pala ang mali
minsan malabo ang mundo
ay mali... malabo naman pala talaga ang mundo bago mo pa maisip na malabo pala ito...
at minsan ikaw pa ang nagpapalabo dito dahil minsan, akala mo ikaw ang tama, akala mo ikaw lang ang may karapatang magalit, akala mo lahat sila ay kaaway mo... yun pala, tanga ka lang dahil nagpadala ka sa iyong emosyon... dahil sa walang kwenta mong emosyon, naapektuhan ang iyong rasyonalidad. kaya nga nasa itaas ang utak dahil ito dapat ang magpasimuno at hindi ang puso na madaling madala ng maraming ilusyong gawa ng mundong malabo...

shet depressed nanaman ako...

hobby ko lang sigurong magmukhang tanga noh?

pangit pa ng ginawa naming hydrogel... :( so sad talaga

~

vague... and blurred... welcome to my life

Thursday, April 26, 2007

nakamamatay

walang tawiran... NAKAMAMATAY

might post pictures in the future... katakot tumawid sa commonwealth! hahaha!

isang thrill ang mag-trabaho sa pnri. para lang kaming nagthethesis pero di gagawa ng paper... hehehe ^_^

mabuhay ang hydrogel! mabuhay ang k-carrageenan, pvp at ang gamma radiation! meron pang isa eh... limot ko na... owell...

200 hours!!! un lang...


Tuesday, April 24, 2007

procrastination

i love wikipedia!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Procrastination

"Severe procrastination and/or ADD can cross over into internet addiction or computer addiction. In this instance the individual has a compulsion to avoid reality by surfing the web or playing video games (see Game addiction) or looking at online pornography (see Pornography addiction). Although these are relatively new phenomena, they are being considered as psychiatric diagnoses by mental health professionals."

sounds familiar... hmmm...

While academic procrastination is not a special type of
procrastination, procrastination is thought to be particularly
prevalent in the academic setting, where students are required to meet
deadlines for assignments and tests in an environment full of events
and activities which compete for the students' time and attention. More
specifically, a 1992 study showed that "52% of surveyed students
indicated having a moderate to high need for help concerning
procrastination"[4].


Some students struggle with procrastination due to a lack of time
management or study skills, stress, or feeling overwhelmed with their
work. Students can also struggle with procrastination for medical
reasons such as ADD/ADHD or a learning disorder such as dyslexia.


The situation is worse at the graduate
level, where the conditions are perfect for procrastination—intangible
mental work with flexible deadlines and often self-defined goals. Many
colleges and universities offer classes, coaching, and tutoring in
study skills for students who are struggling with procrastination or a
learning disorder. Students with ADD or learning disorders often
qualify for special considerations such as increased time for
test-taking.


It is not known how often a severe case of procrastination caused by
a mental health problem may fail to be noticed when the person is in an
academic context, because it is merely categorized as "academic
procrastination".

oh great... sapul!


Friday, April 20, 2007

lasing!

What my surname says about me:

C: you are really silly
A: you like to drink.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
A: you like to drink.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
S: easy to fall in love with.


DOES YOUR LAS NAME SAY ABOUT
YOU?:
A: you like to drink.
B: you like people.
C: you are really silly
D: one in a million.
E: great in bed.
F: you are dead sexy.
G: you never let people tell you what
to do.
H: you have a very good personality,
looks and a very good kisser.
I: great in bed.
J: people adore u.
K: you're wild and crazy.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
M: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
O: awesome kisser.
P: you are popular with all types of
people.
Q: you are hypocrite.
R: fuckin crazy. (in a fun way)
S: easy to fall in love with.
T: you're loyal to those you love
U: you are really silly.
V: you are not judgemental.
W: you are very broad minded.
X: you never let people tell you what
to do.
Y: best boy/girl friend any one can
ask for.
Z: always ready.

DELETE THE OTHER PERSON'S NAME AND
REPOST THIS WITH THE TITLE "What does
ur Last Name say about u??"

~

galing lang sa frienster...hehe... ksp mode lang naman ^_^


gupit

nagpagupit ako ng buhok. sabi ko kay kuya (yes, lalaki siya hindi bading. no, hindi ko siya crush kaya dun ako nagpapagupit. defensive? haha) sabi ko mas mahaba kesa sa dati. konti lang ang ibawas. tanong niya, pero parang yung dati rin? sabi ko, opo, layered pero mas mahaba. ayun, mas mahaba nga, sa may ibaba ng tenga. mukha pa rin akong lalaki :p

i lost 1lb. kasalanan ni kuya

i also blame the heat for melting the fat in my body. gawd, too much heat! it's roasting the philippines.

palibre ng halo-halo!!!

pangarap

name that tune: "pangarap kong maging senador!"
sino nagsabi niyan? si pitsay!!! may tama ka! ^_^
edu is great pero namimiss ko pa rin minsan si kris aquino. ang kulit kasi ng katarayan at kababawan niya. prangka kasi. sinasabi lahat ng nasa isip niya. idol ko yun. gusto kong matutong magsalita tungkol sa aking mga saloobin. i often fade away in my own personal bubble. parang ngayon, i've got earphones on but no music playing. it's just something that i do to keep people out of my bubble. it's an excuse to exclude myself from the real world and fade away in my own world.. even if it's just pretend.. parang baliw lang na may sariling mundo...

i think i'm a sociopath... i don't behave the same way as other people do. my social behavior could have been caused by my exposure to pure bitches at a very young age. i've learned to hate bitches and divas, and learned to hang on to people i trust (boys of course). gender biases suck.. but what can i do? it's part of my personality. ayoko sa maaarteng babae. idol ko si kris just because i love to mock her and i'd die if i get to be within 10 meters from her. naiinis ako sa maaarteng mga babae. nakakatuwa lang sila pero hanggang 15 mins ko lang yun naaapreciate. hay... kaya siguro ako naging maangas.

mahinhin pero maangas. pwede yun.

pangarap kong maging lalaki... pwede ba yun?


Thursday, April 19, 2007

gudlak

frustrating!!! gah... my ojt's been delayed... one week... parang nanakawan ako ng 40hrs. kainis. wala namang nagsabi sakin na pwedeng magdownload na lang ng forms para last week pako nagsisimula. hay. sinumulan ko na lang yung thesis ko.

this week was just empty. no love interests. minimal social life. we had an out-of-town gig for GPM kung saan nawarla kami kay sir. may gig nanaman kami sa saturday siyempre bigtime at haggard nanaman.

puro haggard na lang di naman gaanong fulfilling... parang ritual na lang na nawawalan na ng halaga dahil paulit-ulit na lang. nakakapgod na minsan kahit wala namang ginagawa. nakakapagod dahil ang daming ginagawa pero parang wala rin naman...

kaya nga may mid-life crisis. after years of doing the same thing forever, you seek for a greater meaning in life and all that bull.. hahaha!

ang gulo... ang gulo ng buhay ko... ang gulo kahit wala namang nangyayari... pinapagod ko lang sarili ko. naisip ko lang, baka di nako kumuha ng 2nd degree. tatapusin ko na lang ang una kong degree, magrereview for the boards, magtatrabaho habang nag-aaral ng teaching in secondary education. the college of education offers an 18-unit certificate program in education. kewless yun. sigruo 9 units per sem kukunin ko habang nagtatrabaho sa isang kumpanyang malapit lang sa eskwelahan. o tapusin ko na yung 18 units sa isang sem ***haggard??? hay... pagod nako... gagawa pako ng solutions bukas tapos magbabasa ng absorbance ng UV-Vis spectrophotometer.

gudlak sakin

gudlak kay sanjaya. voted out, finally

Sunday, April 15, 2007

crocheted bag

Rating:★★★★
Category:Other
just something i found at http://www.michaels.com/art/online/projectsheet?pid=24203&categoryid= that i will hopefully finish before the end of summer... it's a really cute kikay bag that i could really use next sem. pwede rin pangregalo ^_^

* Abbreviations:
beg = begin(ning)
ch = chain
dc = double crochet
mm = millimeters
rep = repeat
rnd = round
sc = single crochet
sl = slip
sp = space
st(s) = stitch(es)
* or ** = repeat whatever follows the * or ** as indicated
[ ] = work directions in brackets the number of times specified.



* Ch 4; join with a sl st to form a ring.



* Rnd 1: Ch 3, 15 dc in ring; join with a sl st to top of ch-3 – 16 sts.



* Rnd 2: Ch 3, dc in same ch as joining, 2 dc in each dc around; join – 32 sts.



* Rnd 3: Ch 3, dc in same ch as joining, dc in next dc, [2 dc in next dc, dc in next dc] 15 times; join – 48 sts.



* Rnd 4: Ch 3, dc in next dc, 2 dc in next dc, [dc in next 2 dc, 2 dc in next dc] 15 times; join – 64 sts.



* Rnd 5: Ch 3, dc in same ch as joining, dc in next 3 dc, [2 dc in next dc, dc in next 3 dc] 15 times; join – 80 sts.



* Rnd 6: Ch 3, dc in next 3 dc, 2 dc in next dc, [dc in next 4 dc, 2 dc in next dc] 15 times; join – 96 sts. Place this piece over the cardboard and trace around the edge before continuing.



* Rnd 7: Ch 1, sc in back lp of each st around; join in both lps of first sc.



* Rnd 8: Ch 1, sc in first sc, * skip next 2 sc, 5 dc in next sc, skip next 2 sc **, sc in next sc; rep from * around, end at **; join to first sc.



* Rnd 9: Ch 3, 2 dc in same sc as joining, * skip next dc, sc in next 3 dc **, skip next dc, 3 dc in next sc; rep from * around, end at **; join to top of ch-3.



* Rnd 10: Ch 1, * sc in next dc, skip next 2 sts, 5 dc in next sc, skip next 2 sts; rep from * around; join to first sc.



* Rnds 11-27: Rep Rnds 9 and 10 eight more times, then rep Rnd 9 again. Beading Rnd 28: Ch 4, skip next dc, * dc in next st, ch 1, skip next st; rep from * around; join to 3rd ch of ch-4.



* Rnd 29: (Sl st, ch 3, dc) all in first ch-1 sp, * ch 3, sl st in side and top lps of last dc made, [2 dc in next sp] twice; rep from * around; join in top of ch-3.



* Fasten off. Weave in ends.



* Straps (Make 2): Cut two 4.5-yard lengths of thread. Bring 4 cut ends together and tie in a knot close to ends. Have a friend hold this end or tape it to a table. Slip a pencil or crochet hook in loop opposite knotted end; keeping thread taut, twirl pencil twisting strands until threads are very tightly twisted. Bring loop and knotted ends together; knot all ends together. Remaining thread will form twisted cord; smooth kinks from cord.



* Weave cord through spaces of Beading rnd of bag. Tie cord in a knot about 2-inch from ends. Cut off original knots. Trim. Weave second cord through spaces of Beading rnd, beg in space exactly opposite from first cord. Finish same as for first cord. Cut cardboard slightly smaller than tracing. Place in bottom of bag for stability.

Friday, April 13, 2007

bum

because it's a weekend and the institute where i'm taking my ojt won't open its doors til monday, and since my life isn't really that interesting when i'm not worrying about my acads or my complicated/irritating labslayp, mukhang balik kontra nanaman ako. kontra adik nanaman for now.

this summer, i'm seriously planning (hay, planning nanaman) on expanding my repertoire. gitara nanaman siguro.. hmm.. pwede rin siguro ako magtahi... dami pakong tatahiing pants eh. hehe...

thinking about my future again... how can i not when practically everybody surrounding me is talking about it... gawd... still freaks me out.

maybe i should just stop thinking... ang dami ko kasing naiisip... ang nakaraan, ang kasalukuyan at ang hinaharap... pero wala namang nangyayari sa akin. mabuti pang di na lang ako bigyan ng oras magisip para dirediretsong may ginagawa akong productive...

i just finished a small shoulder bag and a bikini top. yey for crochet needles! if only i have a digital camera, i'd post pictures and even build a website that showcases my products then people can order then i could just stop studying and turn this small business into my career... then i won't have to worry about graduating or job-hunting... great...

ayokong maging bum...


Wednesday, April 11, 2007

we could be in love

just looking back... i still love lea salonga's voice... siya ang unang idol ko (sorry aia de leon, nauna si lea sayo) i actually bought two of her albums. cassette pa noon. fan ako. opcors! ang galing niya kasi... may class pa. kaya lang di na siya gumagawa ng kanta ngayon eh. may pamilya na siya. ako naman, medyo nagshift ang aking taste sa heavier side of music... pero sabi nga nila, first love never dies... ^_^

we could be in love
lea salonga

Be still my heart

Lately its mind is on it's own

It would go far and wide

Just to be near you


Even the stars

Shine a bit bright I've noticed

When you're close to me

Still it remains a mystery


Anyone who seen us

Knows what's going on between us

It doesn't take a genius

To read between the lines Brad: ohh

And it's not just wishful thinking

Or only me who's dreaming

I know what these are symptoms of

We could be in love


I ask myself why

I sleep like a baby through the night

Maybe it helps to know

you'll be there tomorrow


Don't open my eyes

I'll wake from the spell I'm under

Makes me wonder how Tell me how

I could live without you now


And what about the laughter

The happy ever after

Like voices of sweet angels

Calling out our names

And it's not just wishful thinking

Or only me who's dreaming

I know what these are symptoms of

We could be in love


All my life

I have dreamed of this

But I could not see your face


Don't ask why two such distant stars

Can fall right into place


Oh, it doesn't take a genius

To know what these are symptoms of

We could be, we could be in love

kwatro

bwiset na kwatro yan... ang tawag yata dito ay "wake up call" magbagong buhay na daw ako... at seriosohin ko na daw ang pagbabagong buhay ko... kailangan na eh... --_--'

ok, so magpapakatino nako.. can you imagine nagsimba ako kanina. yes, nagsimba ako kanina. akala ko matutunaw ako... siyempre naghanda nako ng panyo in case matunaw nga ako... so medyo lang naman, maluhaluha ako dahil naawa nako sa sarili ko. hay... oo nahihiya nako, di mo na kailangang ipagdiinan. hay...

alanganin... yan ang kuwatro. hindi pa sigurado, kaya mageexam para siguraduhin. so yun, bukas ang exam... sheeeeet!!! sana pumasa nako... sheeeeet....

eh ikaw, di rin ako sigurado sayo. gusto ko nang tanong sayo kung may gusto ka sakin kasi masyado kang defensive. sus! txt mo sakin, "hoy laya, hindi ito date ha! hahahahaha!" bakit? may sinabi ba akong date yun? magpapaturo lang naman ako... pero sige fine, para nga naman walang misunderstanding. at least malinaw na hindi nga yun date. brr... as if naman iisipin kong date yun. duh? nakapambahay ka. wahahahaha!

alanganin... kasi hindi pa rin ako sigurado... pero assuming ako. i assume na wala kang gusto sa akin. pero sana lang wag mo nakong lokohin na liligawan mo ako kasi baka maniwala nako dahil sa sobrang pagkadefensive mo.

hay... kung gwapo ka lang sana at may hot body... ako na manliligaw sayo... kaya lang hindi eh... sorry ha, mabait ka lang kaya ako laging sumasama sayo. bwahahahaha! di lang ikaw may karapatang magpakabitch ^_^

~

churi naman... ksp lang... na-miss ko lang mag-blog... kailangan ko lang talagang magsulat for the sake of writing something... anything... hahaha!

ang tawag sakin, adik... ^_^

goodluck sa akin at sa lahat ng magreremovals bukas... shet... sheeeeeeeet...

[edit] sa may pa pala ang removals... -_-' [/edit]

Monday, April 09, 2007

quatro


bwiset na kwatro yan... ang tawag yata dito ay "wake up call" magbagong buhay na daw ako... at seriosohin ko na daw ang pagbabagong buhay ko... kailangan na eh... --_--'

ok, so magpapakatino nako.. can you imagine nagsimba ako kanina. yes, nagsimba ako kanina. akala ko matutunaw ako... siyempre naghanda nako ng panyo in case matunaw nga ako... so medyo lang naman, maluhaluha ako dahil naawa nako sa sarili ko. hay... oo nahihiya nako, di niyo na kailangang ipagdiinan. hay...

alanganin... yan ang kuwatro. hindi pa sigurado, kaya mageexam para siguraduhin. so yun, bukas ang exam... sheeeeet!!! sana pumasa nako... sheeeeet....

~

churi naman... ksp lang... na-miss ko lang mag-blog... kailangan ko lang talagang magsulat for the sake of writing something... anything... hahaha!

ang tawag sakin, adik... ^_^

goodluck sa akin at sa lahat ng magreremovals bukas... shet... sheeeeeeeet...


[edit] sa May pa pala ang removals... --_--' [/edit]


wala

Isip ka ng isang tao. I-base mo sa
kanya ang mga isasagot mo. WALAng
ibahan ng naisip. MAGPAKATOTOO!!!

*//friend mo ba sya sa friendster?
...nope

*//anong lugar ang naaalala mo sa
kanya?
...sunken garden or tambayan ng mga walang tambayan

*//bket?
...kasi dun kami tumambay noon

*//anong song ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
...never been to me

*//bket?
...kailangan ko daw yun pakinggan sabi niya

*//ok ba ang height?
...keri lang... kaya lang kuba siya minsan. ayaw magdiretso ng tayo/upo

*//magaling ba kumanta?
...di ata siya mahilig kumanta

*//eh sumayaw?
...ewan... haha

*//may kamukha ba syang artista/singer?
...ewan... di ko gaanong tinitingnan ang mukha niya e

*//close ba kayo?
...siguro... sana...

*//nakita mo na syang magalit?
...di pa ata

*//eh ngumiti?
...siyempre. pag magkasama kami nakangiti siya ^_^

*//eh umiyak?
...di pa... di pa rin naman niya ako nakikitang umiyak eh... which is weird...

*//ano fave food nya?
...di ko lam... dami kasing bawal sa kaniya. yun ang medyo naaalala ko. hehe

*//bket?
...kasi kinuwento niya sakin noon

*//bket sya ang napili mo pra sa survey na ito?
...ewan ko ba... naisip ko lang na siya ang isipin. hehe...

*//pinaiyak ka ba nya?
...di pa naman

*//pinaiyak mo ba sya?
...di pa naman siguro.. hehe

*//pinangiti ka ba nya?
...siyempre ^_^ 5 mins before ko siya makita maluhaluha ako. pag kasama ko na siya, tumatawa nako. nakakainis... gusto ko pa minsan umiyak eh. hehehe

*//miz mo na ba sya?
...medyo...

*//talaga?
...yata...

*//bket?
...wala lang... gusto ko na siyang makausap ulit. trip lang. hehe

*//kelan mo sya huling nakita?
...last week. tagal na nun a

*//saan?
...sa campus

*//msg. pra sa kanya?
...wala lang... hehehe ^_^

*//nagsisisi ka ba na nakilala mo sya?
...siyempre hindi ^_^ he's such a blessing to me... sana tuloy tuloy na ang aking pagbabagong buhay. shet... i'm listening to lovesongs again... shet...

wala akong gusto sa kaniya... ang daming complications kung hayaan kong magustuhan ko siya. ok naman siya as a person pero mahirap lang talaga... siya na rin nagsabi sakin noon na di pako handang magkaroon ng relationship so there's no use really if i fall for him, diba? hehe

bestfriend material lang talaga... medyo malabo nga lang na naaapektuhan siya na tinutukso kami pero ako hindi. sabi niya kasi ang lalaki naman daw di magpapaapekto sa panunukso kung wala naman siyang gusto dun sa girl. pero siyempre nahihiya lang daw siya para sa akin. maniniwala naman talaga ako sa kaniya pero masyado na ba siyang defensive?

anyway... wala siyang gusto sa akin at wala akong gusto sa kaniya. clear.