McQueen's Highland Rape collection

http://forums.thefashionspot.com/f60/mcqueens-highland-rape-collection-34905-2.html
alexander mcqueen is amazing. he was inspired by the tragedy that jack the ripper caused. the models had bloodstains all over. it was a painful. he's a genius.

here are a few more pictures of mcqueen's first few collections. the highland rape could be seen at the last page of the forum.
http://forums.thefashionspot.com/f116/1994-1996-alexander-mcqueen-retrospective-53680.html

Betsey Johnson

"find a mentor" daw. oh deh sige, ayan nagsikap akong mag-hanap ng mentor... and I found Betsey Johnson. i've always found her interesting. her designs are unique, loud and vintage inspired. she was a breast cancer survivor and she's doing her part to help in breast cancer research and awareness.

for future reference, here are some links to interesting biographies of Betsey Johnson:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Betsey_Johnson
http://www.betseyjohnson.com/bio.html - from the official betsey johnson website
http://www.missomnimedia.com/2009/08/women-making-history-betsey-johnson/ - M.I.S.S. interview

everybody who is new to something would need a mentor who would serve as a guide, someone to look up to, someone who could serve as your inspiration. i chose betsey johnson because she does a somersault whenever she has a runway show. i love it that she's so young even if she already has 2 grand daughters. and i love it that she uses bold colors. she's not like ralph lauren who designs the obvious and normal polo shirts. ralph lauren is the richest designer, i think, because he caters to the general public. betsy johnson's patrons have attitude.

honestly, i don't think everyone is capable of wearing my clothes. i create clothes for myself and the only person who could pull off this look is me. galing. eh kasi naman sino bang tao ang papasok sa school na nakapantulog diba. although i've been complemented by a bunch of strangers already, kinakabahan pa rin akong ipakita sa buong mundo ang aking mga gawa dahil baka laitin lang ng nakararami... oh well... haha... goodluck na lang sa akin.

betsey johnson has real talent. all i have is a sewing machine. masipag lang ako pero hindi ako creative. wala din akong bagong ideas na maibabahagi sa kasalukuyang industriya. goodluck na lang sa akin.

basahin ko muna ang the devil wears prada... baka mawala ang takot ko :p
naghahanap rin pala ako ng back issues ng vogue. yung tipong P200 lang. pag may makita kayo please bilin ninyo for meeeee..... i need to educate myself. main reference namin ang vogue eh haha. whee!

faith

defined as

1. Confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing.

2. Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence. See Synonyms at belief, trust.

3. Loyalty to a person or thing; allegiance: keeping faith with one's supporters.

4. often Faith Christianity The theological virtue defined as secure belief in God and a trusting acceptance of God's will.

5. The body of dogma of a religion: the Muslim faith.

6. A set of principles or beliefs.

http://www.thefreedictionary.com/faith

i will never forget in high school, during one of the bible studies i attended at the creek in first year, the topic was faith. we were asked what faith was. that's pretty easy. it's believing in something without needing any proof. it's an easy word to define but in reality, it's a hard concept to grasp. i mean, how can you believe in something that logic could not explain?

then we were asked, "what is the opposite of faith?"
*awkward moment of silence*
i answered, "unfaithful?" hahaha funny... but the right answer is fear. if you have faith, then you have nothing to fear.

“Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservation.”
http://thinkexist.com/quotes/with/keyword/faith/

i have so much more to learn about faith, trust and love. i want to learn how to let go of all my fears and trust that eventually everything would be just as He planned it to be. it's a big challenge especially for a control freak like me. kasalanan kasi ng Sims. i'm so good at setting up virtual lives for my characters that i forget that i'm not in a virtual game and that i'm not the one who actually controls my life. i am just an instrument. i'm not the owner of myself.

and yet i'm still scared coz i'm back to square one. i know that there's a big possibility that i won't be a great success in the fashion industry; i don't really have the artistic talent and the right contacts needed to be the next fashion czar of asia; but i still want to take the risk. it looks like one gigantic katangahan. if you were in my shoes, you know that this is the right path just because you've ran out of options XD

fashion is my passion. but as much as possible i wanted to stay away from the industry. trekking this path would mean going against my ideals with regards to capitalism. grabe, gusto kong maging kapitalista... anubatoooooo... ewan... that's why i'm scared. this is something new and something i'm not confident with.

Motivation: It's Not About Carrots or Sticks

http://blogs.bnet.com/entry-level/?p=469&tag=nl.e713
employees should be allowed to be motivated by autonomy, master and purpose. it says here that incentives don't always work. when the task involves creativity and the right side of the brain, rewards would likely limit the workers focus and lead to poorer performance and output.

oh management... there's so much i need to learn :p

i love TED

~

economics is pronounced as e-co-no-mics. sa up kasi eh ee-con ang sinasabi nila... weird... haha

for tita doobie

pinapaemail ni nanay sa inyo... pero tinatamad ako magemail kaya eto, inupload ko na lang ^_^

enjoy

lost

naliligaw nanaman ako. yey!

sana mahanap ko na kung nasaan ako ngayon at kung saan ako patungo. nakakahilo ang paikot-ikot. nakakapagod maglakad para lang malamang wala na palang mapupuntahan. yey!

i've stopped crying

nakakastress lang ang mock boards at ng board exam.

sinusulit ko lang ang gabi.

sinasanay ko pa rin ang sarili kong single na ako.

kinukumbinsi ko pa rin ang sarili kong kaya kong harapin ang board exam.

di nako iiyak. ubos na luha ko.

pulitika!

anuba, ang kapal talaga ng mukha ni manny villar. akala ko pa naman ang sinalihan kong fun run ay para sa benepisyo ng mga organisasyon sa up, yun pala ito ay pasimpleng kampanya ni manny villar. hmph... sayang lang effort ko gumising ng maaga. ginamit lang pala ako ni villar para masabing madaming sumusuporta sa kaniya. eh hello?!?!?! hindi ko alam na para sa kaniya pala yang fun run na yan noh. i was deceived!!! ibalik niyo pera ko!!! >_<

walang kwentang hataw pilipinas yan na para raw sa good governance... sige... sabi mo...

hindi pa po panahon sa pangangampanya. technically, hindi naman illegal ang ginagawa ninyo pero sana naman mahiya ka noh... hay... sumasakit ang ulo ko... ang pangit pa ng singlet na pinapamigay mo. free size kasi. nakita mo na ba kung gaano ako kapayat? ay, gusto mo akong magmukhang saranggola? wow, ikaw ay nagtagumpay. congrats naman... hmph...

chicken with white sauce

Description:
kunwaring carbonara lang naman hahaha

Ingredients:
olive oil
chicken breast
crushed garlic
bell pepper
can of mushrooms
2 packs nestle all purpose cream
half a block of cheddar cheese
half a pack of penne pasta

Directions:
lutuin ang manok, itabi

sindihan ang kalan. lagyan ng langis ang lutuan. kapag mukhang lampas na siya sa boiling point ng water, ie. 102`C, idagdag na ang dinurog na bawang. pasayawin ang bawang. idagdag na yung ibang ingredients.

ihanda ang pasta.

kapag mukhang malabnaw ang sauce, dagdagan ng cheese. lalapot siya.

next time, kalahating bell pepper lang.
next time, ilaga muna ang manok. mas madali atang i-shred ang manok kapag matino ang pagkakaluto.
next time, haluin na ang pasta at sauce bago ihain para magkaroon ng lasa yung pasta.
next time, "make the water wait for you, and not you for the water." unahin na ang pagluto ng pasta kasi matagal rin ang 14mins na pagluto ng penne. mas makapal pala yun kesa sa angel hair.
next time bibili nako ng angel hair.
next time pipikchuran ko para may ma-upload ako dito haha

matututo rin ako magluto XD

reboot

i'm currently in limbo... for many reasons. and i need to find my place... err... i need a sign to show me where my place is. (aka chem board exams, where my whole future will unfold) failing would just mean that i'd get my 2nd degree, passing would mean that i'm meant to be a chemist. for now, i'm still in limbo. lost.

i need a fresh start.

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i was browsing through my friend's livejournal. hindi na rin masyadong active mga tao dun, pati sa multiply konti na lang mga tao. i don't like maintaining accounts for the sake of maintainance. so if i leave multiply, it would be like my friendster account. it's still there, but i'm not.

i don't want to open a facebook account. the temptation to play the games would be too much. i'm too obsessive to resist. so, no, i can't afford to start with facebook only to ruin my life.

you know i'm not a fan of maintaining and "keep in touch" in the real sense. i don't txt friends who i haven't seen in the longest time to catch up. it's much more special when it's a coincidence when we bump into each other at an event we're not even invited to. right?

i need those moments. i need to see a genuine smile that i haven't seen in a while without going through the planning. kulang nako sa social life.

chlorine

i use my blog as my online journal. at dahil wala akong lab notebook ngayon, dito ko na lang isusulat. today is august 3, 2009. ito ang unang araw ng pagbabad ko ng mga dahon sa chlorine.

in grade4 science club, we had this project about butterfly tree leaves. we'd dip them in clorox, brush them until they're completely disinfected and totally bleached.

dahil kay jolina the bagyo, napagod na ang mga mahogany namin sa pagbuhat ng kanilang mga dahon. so pinutol namin. tinago ko ang mga dahon para i-bleach at gawing bookmark kahit di ako nagbabasa ng libro.

binabad ko yung mga dahon sa clorox at kahit papaano nalublob ko rin ang mga kamay ko. ang baho tuloy ng kamay ko :( ang lungkot lungkot! waaa... ka-amoy niya yung puno sa elbi na may bulaklak na mabaho ang amoy. dun yun sa may palma bridge. known to students as sperm tree. yah... amoy sperm tree ang kamay ko. how sad...

so ayun, every other day, or tuwing feel ko, papalitan ko yung clorox solution ng mga dahon ko. in a month namumutla na sila. ayoko na gamitan ng toothbrush kasi ayoko na mag-amoy sperm tree ang kamay ko XD

akala ko di pa pwede ang pangangampanya para sa eleksyon ng 2010. yun pala pwede. si manny villar nga eh may banner pa sa multiply --_--'

tax

help please... di ko gets kung paano nagbabayad ng tax. basta alam ko tuwing sineswelduhan ako, may mga binabawas sa akin. laging pareho ang binabawas sa akin sa pag-ibig, sss, philhealth, etc (meron pa ba?) pero yung sa tax parang paiba-iba kada sweldo. di ko pinapansin, basta may napupunta naman sakin so balewala na ang nababawas. haha! ang ignorante noh...

ngayon, nagresign nako (oo, nagresign nako. hindi yun ang issue) at may tax refund ako dahil less than a certain amount daw ang kinita ko. pero kapag magtrabaho ako ulit, may babayaran pakong tax ulit. so ano yun ibabalik ko lang sa kanila yung rinefund sakin? so paano nagbabayad ng tax? papaexplain ko sana dun sa accountant ng pinanggalingan kong company pero nagmamadali nakong umuwi kasi baka makita pako ng boss ko eh hindi ko nagawa yung pinaparesearch niya sa akin about the mercury content of fresh water fish in the philippines. apparently, mataas ang mercury levels ng fish sa pilipinas. eh hindi ako nakadaan sa lab so di ko nabasa yung procedure mula dun sa mahiwagang lab manual. so anyway, ano ba yang tax na yan? may reward ba pag early bird ang pagbabayad ng tax? san nagbabayad? may drop box ba sa aking suking tindahan?